Tuesday, September 29, 2009
I have many friends, but now I know who really cares. Perhaps I'm too stupid to think that those people were my good friends. Perhaps I'm just someone who irriates them. People say when you grow a year older, you'll get wiser. Yes it does, now that my birthday is over I'm wiser. Perhaps is just that my mind got clearer in seeing them. Why I always tend to remember my friends' birthdays? Now I know, because it really matters to friends that you remember their birthday. Be it a late greeting or what, sincerity is what matters. What I expect is not much, but perhaps they just don't know me enough, or I don't know them enough. Sometimes I think is I too stupid or what, how can I see a person like that when they are like this. Perhaps is the habit that I like to run away from reality that's why. I always live in my own wonderful imagination but now that I'm wiser, I learnt that it's better to know the truth than to avoid it. It's time to end my living in my wonderful imagination. I should start defending myself and get to know the truth, the real people that I know. Or perhaps I don't need to get to know them anymore.