Friday, September 25, 2009
Today is my birthday!!!I actually happy because birthday are supposed to be happy. Actually these days feel like writing blog but don't know why in the end, nothing! Basically these days trying to find back the inspiration I had last tuesday to do my FYP. I realized without inspiration, I can't do a thing. So I'm trying my best to do things without inspiration but to no avail or the result, bad. I know it's not good but what can I do, but at least I'm trying to change. Now I realize change is actually somehow a good thing. Imagine when you meet someone you never see for some time and the comment the person give you is "You never change". If it is the past me, I'm sure that I'll say it's good what, able to stay as what I was last time. But now my view changed, it's still good but with a degree of not good in it.
Back to the topic on birthday. When I was young I always liked my birthday. Cakes, food and presents will surround and my family will be celebrating with me. In my memory those days were wonderful, the last family photo with all my cousins was taken when I was around 5-6. Looking back, many changed. People grow up, people gone, more people get into the family, a lot of things change. It's inevitable of course, or esle we'll be so backward. As I grow up, of course my friends will celebrate for me. My primary school friends, secondary school friends, polytechnic friends. Those memories are engraved in my heart, I may forget when and the details of the celebration but that thought is something that I'll always remember.
Perhaps I have a tendency to remember more vividly sad things. Now I would like to forget my birthday, don't know why. It brings me back to the recent years, of course there are happy ones but as I said, I have a tendency to remember sad things more vividly. Although my memory is not good but still big events I'll remember. I always act blur that I forgot because I really would like to forget. One theory that cannot be denied, once a vase is broken, even if it is fixed back, there would be cracks. No matter how well you fixed it back, you'll know that it has been broken before. This imply to relationships, no matter how well you fix back the relationship, both parties would have this scar there, no matter it's deep or not. Regardless of how well both parties think they can hide it, it would never be forgotten. It's only a matter of how well you hide it, or actually, how deep did both parties lock the scar in their hearts.
Okay, I shall not put so much unhappiness on my birthday because in the end, happy memories are more than sad ones. Wish all same birthday as me people HAPPY BIRTHDAY & GOOD LUCK IN EVERYTHING YOU DO!!![I always wish people this xp]