Saturday, August 15, 2009
I must be crazy to use the computer at this time still when I on it at 1p.m. Just finish watch four episodes of "Shugo Chara". It's a nice and meaningful anime, how I hope that there are really guardian characters around. At least I would have someone to talk to. Less than two days is my exams and I have not study a bit, not at all a bit. Sometimes I think, I'm not that kinda person who can live on my own. I would need someone to rely on because I don't care about too many things and I would need someone to handle all those.
我现在知道我为什么不想结婚，不要结婚了。因为我不要另一个人来毁掉我的生命，我宁愿自我毁灭也不要别人来毁掉我。我不要把我一辈子的时间花在埋怨那个人，是想想每每都在埋怨一个人，生活会有多痛苦。我不要被别人控制、约束、操控。Imagine you marry the wrong person and end up you have to do everything and from that onwards your life move to the downside, that person who did this to you will be hated and end up with a divorce. If you have children it's worse, beacause this would bring them horror and shadow to their lifes. This whole post sounds so not linked together, perhaps is beacause I'm losing reason in myself.