Saturday, April 25, 2009
I'm back...!To be exact is my computer is back...it had left mi since i came back from cruise...and now i'm back to my schooling life...final year...finally...
All of a sudden i hope that things don't end soon...don't know why...on the cruise i learnt a lot of things from the guest speakers...one of them that i remember clearly was that the speaker said: "embrace changes,don't be afraid of it because the world is ever changing"...suddenly i felt like crying...cause i'm always not accepting changes and it's just mi...perhaps the world is not suitable for mi...
It's crazy when schooling start...my body is still not used to it and my mind is yet to switch over...hope that this will pass fast...went out with hwj and lydia...always with them there must be something...but i'm glad that they share with mi...
My memory is detoriating at a constant speed...i cannot seem to remember and focus on things...i realized that my thoughts will float away somehow...and i don't know why...now is not the time to figure this out...it's time to concentrate on my studies...yes it's time...
I realized that i don't contact friends...always is they contact mi...i feel so bad about it cause i don't feel myself caring for them...like what they're facing and all...i don't like to ask...because it seems that i'm forcing people to sa things that they don't want...i don't know...now i'm at a stage that i'm so insecure in my life...suddenly i feel that if there's someone, it may be better...
A shoulder to lean on...just to lean on for a while...so as to see that the world is possible...but i don't want to be a burden...it's just a thought that won't last...all i need to do is get over it...perhaps... ...