Saturday, February 28, 2009
This post is dedicated to Lingli:-
Okay, I'm wrong too in shouting...so sorry about that...and i also agree that we're on a verge of anger that's why my voice went loud and temper goes off...I'm sorry...and about the steamboat thingy there's no need to worry so much...if that's your worry then tell us...perhaps over the phone you can tell mi and i'll say another thing to the others...haha...!but the thing is that i want to tell you that i don't mind...what i want is the main, true reason...about deb's matter that's perhaps not what you can control...so i don't blame you...and of course i would also not blame deb...it's all my fault in the first place[as i said in the previous post]...
Perhaps my attitude pissed all of you off...think i don't know...?perhaps keep on acting blur really makes mi blur...sometimes i can't even differentiate what's right and what's wrong...what's true and what's not...but i would rather believe everything is true...because it's doesn't hurt...but now it seems that my world is collapsing...the harsh reality force mi to face it...
Wanting mi to get better, i know...can't you all do it in a more straight forward way...?i don't like people to stab mi by the back or round the bush...so i don't do that too...i would rather you all slap what you think bad of mi at my face than to put up with it...don't think it will hurt mi by slapping it onto my face straight, cause what hurts more is stabbing at the back...everybody knows how it hurts more...
Guess what, i learn that a wall should be built all rounded...not only the front...cause people tend to go by the back and round about...so perhaps this make mi start building it early and perhaps when things happen i will be able to take it...is this considered a change for the better...?i think so...haha...!
Now everything is trashed out, i feel comfortable and i hope you too...and obviously we're still friends...a better friend to each other with more understanding of each other's feelings...thank you for telling mi the things at the bottom of your heart...i appreciate it a lot...you won't know how much it matters to mi when a friend is willing to tell mi things that are at the bottom of their hearts...and of course the above are also from deep inside my heart...and i find it hard to dig man...[one of the reasons is i have to write english and my sister forbids mi to use singlish...haha...!=]