Saturday, December 20, 2008
I'm crazy now...really crazy...i'm not joking...don't provoke mi now...other times but not now...you'll get hell from mi if you provoke mi now...you'll see how bad my temper is...although it's already bad enough, but it gets bad-der...now everything that people says annoy mi...my parents, friends, siblings, none of them are exceptions...expect nothing from mi...i won't produce anything that is good...why the hell am i typing another post on the same day and it's about the same time...i'm really crazy...i think i'm mentally ill...i need a doctor...but i don't think doctors can understand mi...because i do not explain myself well...i can't explain well to others too...no one knows...perhaps someone from mars may know...
This is ridiculus...perhaps i've been living in my sub concious mind for too long and it's time for mi to come back to reality...but it's hitting mi so hard that i feel like dying...because i can't go back to the world that i have been living in already...everything in my world is so nice, so wonderful and nothing seems impossible...now things are out of my control and it's getting out of hand...there's nothing i can do, there's nothing i want to do, there's nothing...i've been thinking, perhaps this is the phrase of my life that have to have a drastic change...i would have to do that...no matter how the people around mi thinks...i need to change...i will force myself to do it...no matter what it takes, i just want to change this situation i'm in...suddenly i feel that changes are something, not nothing...when grow older there's much more to think...