Monday, December 1, 2008
Today I'm at the reception again...!quite bored but the thing is today i also a bit slow in the brain...bought the bread to office but forgot to pass it to the other office...damn stupid i know...later see who going to the corporate office then bring it there la...or else waste le...yesterday went to ikea...quite a nice trip cause got to see a lot of furniture...nice furniture...the price also very "nice"...but some were good...
I'm now not myself anymore...i seem to changed...from someone whom i know to someone who i don't recognize...i don't understand myself now...i don't know myself now...i don't know what i want now...this is so different from whom i know i was...sometimes knowing yourself too well is a problem...you tend to notice changes easily and get trapped in thinking what's happening to yourself...i'm in such a fix right now...
When can i figure out the answer to this...?i don't know...i hope that i can get an answer...but it seems difficult...it's tiring...for mi when things get too complicated i just leave it as it is...i won't want to figure it out anymore...but for one thing i'm sure is that i don't like the mi now...it's seems so fake...so unreal...so unsecured...
My sister and i seek the same thing in men...security...perhaps we can't find it in ourselves that's why our partner has to have it...i know i can't have a partner cause i would just drive another human being crazy by doing so...so i hope that my sister can find someone who she can find the things she wants...and the things she don't have...so that the partner can help her in her path of life...
Conclusion: i'm not normal...