Saturday, July 5, 2008
Few days ago, i forgot what exactly happened...but i told fanni about i swear to God that i won't get married at pri5/6...she give mi that kinda unbelievable look and ask mi something which let mi thought for some time...do i want to have a partner, but not get married...?in actual fact i don't know...having somebody to rely on is nice, comforting...but getting married has a lot of responsibility, legally...if you want to break up, which is divorce, there's a lot of procedures and normally will spoil the relationship because of the money and everything...since being in a relationship also needs responsibility, then what for get married...?it's not only the legal part that i don't like, it's the whole thing about marriage make mi feel very...not scared, it's not that i have phobia for marriage, it's just that if i can chose i'll chose not to get married...
things change almost everyday and everything can never remain constant...i admit my thinking of getting married did waver, i did think of getting married and settle down...but still, i love freedom, perhaps i just haven't met that person which i love more than freedom...if that someone appears means that i will die...or perhaps i can survive...if the love for freedom can help mi suppress the love for that person...but there's always a saying"这世上一定有人可以克制你、控制你，而你拿他一点办法也没有"...so hopefully that person don't ever appear in my life...but if really he appears, then what can i do...the only way is to accept and see how it goes...let nature take its course...
hopefully that person has the same thinking as mi...then i don't need to worry...haha=]actually I'm not worrying about this right now...but just thinking...nothing to do what[actually a lot]...it's quite interesting and fun to think of what may happen in the future of your life...but worry also no use...so just think think and imagine...hahaxD
tomorrow got bbq...lingli's birthday...hope the weather is good and hopefully the beach is clean...then can sit there and think about more things...haha=]i like to think...but it's nothing to concern about the present...haha=]sitting at the beach to think about somethings and sort out my thinkings is what i like...because i don't want to keep changing, i don't like changes...i realised i type English these days...a change...